JudyR's profile

I love that I'm labeled a "normal member" here. I've nevuh evuh evuh been called normal....thank G-d!

Sobriety Date: 2/12/1999

I HAVE COME TO KNOW A NEW FREEDOM......and do not wish to shut the door on it!

About me as it relates to sobriety is colorful (in hindsight) and definitely was a journey. I knew I was restless, irritable & discontent at an early age. Alcohol (and drug addiction) comforted me and let me be who I thought I wanted to be. Never in a million years did I give a thought that 3 decades of abuse would put me in the rooms of AA. HAH!

Upon my introduction to AA, like so many other alcoholics, I found it to be cultish and religeous. Of course, I never had the capacity to be open minded or honest with my self. So I decided to continue my wreckage until the pain turned into suffering. I let the suffering continue for 10 more years.

In February of 1999 I was suicidal in my thinking and my HP kicked in and took over. I finally sought help on my own and was completely willing to do whatever it took to stay alive.

The rest is history. I have not always embraced the journey. I had conflicts with Steps 2 & 3 (like so many of us). I was not and *am* not a religeous person so I didn't have the guilt/shame of G-d. I just never gave G-d a thought. Never prayed for help or cursed him/her/it. It took a spiritual awakening a few years into sobriety to bring me the comfort I so long desired.